"So be it, I'm your crowbar
If thats what I am so far
Until you get out of this mess
And I will pretend
That I dont know of your sins
Until you are ready to confess
But all the time, all the time
I'll know, I'll know
And you can use my skin
To bury your secrets in
And I will settle you down
And at my own suggestion,
I will ask no questions
While I do my thing in the background
But all the time, all the time
i'll know, I'll know"

out.

[	mood	|	down..AND UP	]
[	music	|	Has Anyone Ever Written Anything For You- Stevie Nicks	]

This is getting so pathetic. Seriously. I have just about had it with this whole back and forth flirtation and all of the bullshit said between us. It's just getting so pathetic. I'm not the kind of person who just "enjoys" sitting around waiting for things to happen on their own sweet time, but it seems that's how life has been playing itself off these days. I've been bitching about this topic for TOO long, to TOO many people, and I feel that it's just about time that it all came to an end. Unfortunatly, I know it won't and the bitching will continue. "So, why," may you ask,"bitch about it, once again, and tell yourself that you'll stop after, once again, coming to the conclusion that it's been enough?"  Whatever. I can't take it anymore.

I'm done.

But not really.

This is the reason I live. They are just beautiful.

[	mood	|	alittle bit of everything	]
[	music	|	Garbage-Bleed like me	]

Well, as usual, the week has started off sucky. I'm pissed off at, hmm, probably everyone for one reason or another. Maybe it's just PMS, but for some reason I think it's more because some people are just plain bitches.

On a better note look at the contacts I want to invest in buying..

( <HJSAGBOIAGH> )

[	mood	|	just..	]
[	music	|	c o l o r b l i n d	]

it kinda pisses me off how people claim to l o v e someone, yet either they don't know the person that well or they've been going out with the person for a week or they have a new boyfriend EVERY week/month and claim to love each one. I would be a hypocrite saying that I've never done this..said that i loved someone but didn't..but I've learned to control it.I've felt love. I know how it feels. I just wish it felt the same way back.

On a higher note..i decided to make a list of goals for each month this year..yes, so far all i have are goals for April but..im getting there..

( goals.. )

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Jessie singing	]

I'm feeling strangely fine.
a weird kinda feeling,
kinda like a soft summer breeze just went through me,
through a cold winter world.
spring is finally coming
and I'm happy.
because Spring reminds me of a warm, soft flower.
and i like warm, soft flowers.

"Wouldn't it be nice if we were older?
And we wouldn't have to wait so long?"
^I'm hearing this in my ear..

"Wouuuuuuuuldn't it be nice if we were older?
Aaaaaaaaand we wouldn't have to wait so long?
And after having spent the day together
I'm siiiiiiiiiiiinging the wrong verse of this song
And thats ok because it
Rhymes together.
Outside right now theres really nice weather."

^Jessies version of this song

Well thats it. bounce bouce bounce.<- as you can see i am bouncing.

[

mood

|

not really that happy..

]

my sexii sexii fauset..(i just noticed how dirty it is)

i thought the little drop of water was cute..

a stupid little heart i drew in spanish..

stupid little heart i drew in english.."the little emo heart"-Sarah Smyth..i love that girl

My mommy's wine..yes..she has "her own" wine..

and this is all outta bordom people..sorry

[	mood	|	yep..	]
[	music	|	Keane- Somewhere only we know	]

I was eating my dinner and I was eating my meat. Inside the meat was a piece of pepper and my mouth is still burning. I guess life is kinda like a piece of pepper within the walls of meat. Weird analogy, but I guess it kinda makes sence. You could be chewing beautiful piece of meat, so yummy and meaty, and then all of a sudden this damn piece of pepper gets in there some how and ruins your totally good piece of meat. Life could be beautiful, everything seems to be going for you, but then all of a sudden this damn "thing" comes and bites you in the butt, totally ruining what you had and all you had been working for. Your mouth is you and that piece of meat is life. You chew away at life trying to get the best out of it and trying to "avoid" those "peppers", but somehow, one always sneaks in. Depending on how "hot" that piece of pepper is, depends on how the "after-taste" feels. Some peppers are too hot to be gotten rid of. Even after the 2491409174th water, the taste will never truly go away. And I guess that’s just the way some peppers are.. hot and unenviable.

So some 5 months ago I was worrying about a new school, I was worried about how things would turn out, I was worried about alot of things. Most of the things I was worried about never really happend, but then again, alot of them did.

[	mood	|	::neapapgh::	]
[	music	|	Dresden Dolls-Slide	]

Don't worry, I've got you.